I was STUCK by the LYRICS :'(

WHAT CAN I SAY - DEAD BY APRIL

I tried to be all that you need

tried not ever let you down

still I can see it in your eyes

Not good enough

(This time I believed that I really could change)

(I gave it all)

(This time you really had my everything)

(I guess I was wrong)

I guess I was wrong

What can I say, what can I do

This is who I am and I am hurting you

What can I say, what can I do

No matter how strong my feelings are

I always end up hurting you

I always end up hurting you

I'm hurting you

I tried hard only to be him

You've always wanted in life

Still I just bring you misery

(What can I do)

(This time I believed in you, in me)

(When I gave it all)

(This time I could see it all perfectly,)

(I guess I was wrong)

I guess I was wrong

What can I say, what can I do

This is who I am and I am hurting you

What can I say, what can I do

No matter how strong my feelings are

I always end up hurting you

I always end up hurting you

Without you I am crying

With you I am just hurting you

Without you I am dying

With you I am tearing your heart

(Without you I am crying)

(Without you I am dying)

What can I say, What can I do

This is who I am and I'm hurting you

What can I say, what can I do

No matter how strong my feelings are

I always end up hurting you

I always end up hurting you

I always end up hurting you

i think im in LOVE!!!

recently i just drop by at the place where he work!!
i cant denied it that i love him pple.
i have tried to put aside all the feelings but it grew stronger each day );
sry dear!


only CLOSEDD pple know about him!
u wont believe me if i tell u.
i dont know why among all other man,i falling for him
he make my head spin right round right round :D
he make my world become rounder!!
it's feel like my world is EMPTY when he's not a PART of it :)
i'm DAMN happy and will be happier each seconds


plus,i always praying ++ hoping that he will be mine one day!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPLE!!

2009?

i can't describe it in ONE WORD!

a lot of sweet, happy, sad, frightening, fun, hurtful, betrayed, joy, used, and awesome memories have I experienced with my friends.

we've been through it no matter during our ups and downs.

TRULY,most of it are very special to me!this year also wan my SENIOR year in SMKBI.

im not gonna say that it is my FAV school,but no matter what,

im "ANAK JATI SMKBI".i've been there for 5 years since 2005 babehh.

later,all my friends are going to EMBARKED on a new journey including me wit h different path to fulfill n pursue our hopes and dreams.

My hopes are that although we are FAR APART,the FRIENDSHIPS that have been build among us will never fade away.

there's too many friends that comes and goes in this BEAUTIFULL year ;(

im THANKFULL n BLESSLESS for the new friends at the same time im sad for they who had to move away from here,who have to catch their dreams at ASRAMA.

no matter where you guys are,NEVER EVER FORGET ME OKAY!

we've been through a lot together.

2009 in MEMOIRS....

this was the year where :-

i sit for my SPM

my final year at SMKBI

i have LOTS of problems

i have learned the MOST VALUABLE thing in my life

i know the TRUE friendship was

i know who is my friends and who is my FOE's

i have GROW up and be a WISE WOMEN

AS IN 2010....

i would like to say to all of my friends :-

HAVE AN ENJOYING 2010 AND WONDERFUL NEW LIFE.

LETS OUR 2009 MEMORIES CLOSED FOREVER AND SEEK OUT FOR A NEW MEMORIES IN 2010.

sincerely,

FeraZamri ♥

OMG!!the TWINS still alive babehhh (;

OMG pple!!still recognise them??

GREATEST THANKS to ALLAH for meeting me with my old BUDS (;

i can tell they look way different then the LAST TIME i saw them.

onwards,they look taller n much MATURED meyh :D

ade kelass gituu ;p

the meeting wasn't planned at ALL!

im was accompanied my bro (BOBOY) the TUAN KECIK,to POPULAR book store.

before headed to popular,i drop by to BASKIN ROBIN's for a quit visit on my BFF.

then,ate a cup of ice cream (YUMMY!) then headed to POPULAR book store :)

i was blown away by my lil bro until i didn't recognise that the TWINS were there!!

first,they just passed through me,i think they wanted to make sure that the girl they saw was me.

i was SHOCKED!!and i said "ASTAGHFIRULLAH" loud nn clear!!!

lucky me,they still recognise me :)

then,we went separated ways as they with their fam's n i went to KFC for lunch with BOBOY.

then went for a KAROEKE!

can't believe it that boboy actually can SING man (:

after finish shouting,singing nn enjoying ourselves there,

my mom came,to pick us home.

then,i ask her a PERMISION to visit the TWINS again for the last time :)

they are playing bowlings!

THE END.

until now,i still msging with the TWINS!!

don't think otherwise okay!

WE'RE JUST FRIENDS :)

im TOTALLY ENVY with MARZUQI right now !! X(

puiiiiii kau marzuqii!!

kau sngaje nk buat aku jeles ehhh postkn psl trip kau tuu!!

AKU NK IKUT GAK WEYHHHH!!
smpai hati kau nk tinggalkn kat MALAYSIA nii );

isk isk isk :'(

what is THAT FREAKKY thang??!!

pple,this is WAYYY freakky than i thought!
im in LOVE with those shoes i just post.i dunno why but im hungry for it!
nice aite??there u go!
see,i do have a GOOD taste in FASHION.
if not,why the hell i wanna be a FASHION designer aite?

enough of all this crappy thinggy!
all i know,i love those shoes.n i want it like i want to hug TAYLOR LAUTNER :D

love those THING!!!

OH MY GUCCI,OH MY PRADA && OH MY GOSHH!
i love these things.
just finished searching tops and swaters at F21!!
these are the ones that caught my eyes.
hahahahahaha

I WANT IT!!MAMA,PLEASE BUY IT FOR ME :)

im HUNGRY for them!!

fera ALERT pple!!!
im HUNGRY for their SONGS (;

TOKIO HOTEL?
HUMANOID ALBUM babehhhh.
favourite song :-
world behind my wall
pain of love
human connect to human
noise
automatic

DEAD BY APRIL?
DEAD BY APRIL ALBUM :D
favourite song :-
what can i say
losing you
promise me
i found my self in you

hear it then enjoy it while u can :p
♥ xoxo

family ASSOCIATION (:

OMG pple!!!
pg SUNWAY PYRAMID meletihkn kot!!
ye laa,kuzin2 sume nek KL,kne laa bwk dorg OUTING meyh :)

btw,we went to SL for swimming and have fun.
there's to many FUN ride we ride.
then,i met SHAUQI there!!he's looking DAMN HOT :D
i just drop by and say hi.we were there for 5 hours i think.
then,cntinue meeting my aunty at SP meyh.
just cross over the BRIDGE there :)

sng cite,1 hari laa ktorng kat sane.
shopping2 weyh!
i bought wedges n 1 dress :)
ade satu dress ni,orang colour!
damn HOT!igt nk beli,tp bila laa nk pkai aite?hohohoho :p
that's it for now.

till then ; xoxo ♥

SPM around the CORNERRRRR!

study pple!!
SPM is around the corner babehhh
take it SERIOUSLY dude.
penentu mase depan nii weyh :D

DOAKAN KEJAYAAN AKU WEYHHH!!!

GRADUATION day!

hahahahahahha.at last,im GRADUATING my high school for evaaaa.
i really mean it,unfortunately SPM is in 17 more days!
pple,what am i suppose to do?
HELP me WO/MAN especially BIO duhhh!!
the MOST hated SUBJECT EVER!
hahahahhaahha :p

hoorayyy!

today is the 100 anniversary of posting a new post!
hohohohohoho.
thank to u guys,my life is not SO boring after all.


thank for them who love me n support me,
in everything i do.
i have learn so MUCH this year :)

xoxo ♥ feravratza

DZUHRY open hse :)

hmm,there's nothing much to do today.
i just attending zury open hse which is i went there by walking with anam.
bhahahahahaha.it was the BEST damn thing that happen today oke!

before that,i was COMPLETELY dunno what am i going to wear since the theme is wear whatever u feels u want to wear.
firstly,i planned with anam to wore red kemeja.
unfortunately,anam does not have one.
so,i have to choose other colour which is i choose GOLD i think.

HOLY COW!!
there were a TON's pple were already there.
"aku dengan selambanya tambag brpeluh2 pown masuk buat muka TEBAL"
bhahahahahahhaa :))

then,when it come to say goodbye,i thought i want to go home with anam.
thanks to ANAM yang pemalasnya nk jalan,
mcm laaa jauh sgt rumah tuu.
hahahahahahha.
i call my mom ask her to pick me up.
then suddenly she said that she's still in PUTRAJAYA.
so,anam call his brother to pick us up.
we thought his brother drove a car,but he ride a MOTORCYCLE just to pick anam up!
what the H**L!how the F**K am i supposed to go home.
i just make a quick conclusion that i want to go home by walking.

zury dgn kuatnya ckp "KO NK JALAN KAKI SORANG?TAK PAYAHH!"
hoishhh.dh bole perlahan skit dh.hahahahahhaha :p
then,i have to wait until 9.30 at zury hse.
wait for him to take his shower man!!
ya ALLAH,wangi mcm prempuan bile kuar dari bilik.
bhahahahahahahha :D

then,while waiting for lokie,we ate some of the food left.
afterwards,we walks to MEDAN's to meet WAK SARKAWI.
hahahahahahha.no laaa.just WAK oke,
ramainyaa teramat disitu.
huhuhuhuhuhu.

luckily,my mom pick me there!
then we go for a LATE supper at AR-RAYYAN.
what an exhausted day.

p/s; ANAM,u should call me and say sorry to me okay!

OMG!!I AM ATTRACTED TO THE MAN IN THE MIDDLE!

he's in the middle!
the name is muhd nur haslam (is this how ur name spell?) :)
hahahaha.

haslam,u look damn HOT MAN!
im MELTING :D
"somebody call 911,show them the fireburning on the dancefloor!"
bhahahahahaha.im totally insane right now ;p

attending marzuqi opn hse!!

hello pple!im getting myself done!
there's an opn hse i have to attend babeh :)
its marzuqi opn hse.

OMG!what am i going to wear?
im tired of wearing baju kurung :(
cn i wear jeans?
wait,i call marzuqi for confirmation :D

"me : hello eqi,fara nii.sape yg dh smpai?
marzuqi : yap,kok n afzal baru.dtg laa.
me : mmg nk dtg,tapi kene pkai bju kurung ke?
marzuqi : eh,tak pyh.pkai bju biase jee!"

after the conversation i was like, OKAY babehh!
im gonna put this on.
nope!this one.OMG!what am i gonna wear?
im out of ideas.

suddenly,i found this red kemeja,
and i wear it to marzuqi coz afterwards im going to visit anam's father.
he's involved with car accident lately,
and now he's in ICU hospital ampang puteri.
hohohohohoho :)

*will post some photos on marzuqi opn hse later :)

raya in K-E-L-A-N-T-A-N meyh!

Holy MAMA!
this raya,were going to celebrate it at my FATHER hometown!!!
which is located in KOTA BHARU,KELANTAN!!!!

HOLY F****** S***!i hate everytime we celebrate raya there!
it is because,i have to wake up early on the 1st day of raya,
help my grandma with some kuih raya stuff.
apart from that,i have to arrange the house so that it would look nicer!

way DIFFERENT from MELAKA.
there's,no need to wake up early,or arrange the house.
it all has been done before raya by my aunt and my grandma on my mother side.
besides,i enjoy myself there because it feels more cultural,like i really was in village.
there are chickens,ducks and so much more.

plus,this raya,i think its going to be A SIMPLE RAYA only.
we'll see about that.

off i go.bbye!

p/s: will be posting raya pic when i get back from KELANTAN (;

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PPLE!!

nice catch aitee??

hohohoho.

actually,i have to take d pic again and again until i got d perfect pic!

at last,ALHAMDULILLAH!

i almost give up bcoz d others photos was kinda BLURR man!

hohohohohohohoho.

okay,back to d MAIN subject!

im,NIK NOOR FARAH a.k.a ferazaemri,

would like to sincerely wish all the muslim pple,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

hope this occasion brings happiness and joy to u n ur family (;

for those who r sitting for PMR n SPM examinations (like me!),

GOOD LUCK in ur exams,

give it all you've got.

may u succeed in everything u say and do now and in the here after.

AMIN!

xoxoxo

♥ ferazaemri!

i want this sooo BADLY!

tops from DOROTHY PERKINS :DD

from topshop!wuhuuuuuu :DD

the TRUTH?

Do you have any pets?
-yeah a siamese cat, pixels and her kittens, jazz,ratchet,badut nn blanket :) oh yeah!nn turtle, toto :D

What color shirt are you wearing?
-white with yellow printing

Name three things that are physically close to you:
-handphone SONY,handphone LG and purse!

What is the last book you read?
- HOT magazines?

Are you or were you a good student?
- hahaha trust me, no :D

What's your favorite sport?
- volleyball n hockey . EVER

Do you enjoy sleeping late?
- ntah, biasa ja

What's the weather like right now?
- idk

Who tells the best jokes?
- wan BELON!hahahahaha.klu lepak,wajib kene ade.

What was the last thing you dreamed about?
- be a fashion designer

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
- YES. hope not!

Do you believe in karma?
- have to, though i dont really want to deal with it

Do you believe in luck?
- mhm

Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?
- scrambled is more preferable kot,

Do you collect anything? If so, what?
- keychains :DD

Are you proud of yourself?
- ON CERTAIN things that ive done

Are you reliable?
- i dont know, and i dont care haha

Have you ever given money to a bum?
- nope, heeeeee

What's your favorite food?
- kuey tiaw kowt?

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
- i heard rumors , but i dont care seriously

Do you like the smell of gasoline?
- seriously, NO

Do like to draw?
- oh god, that is one of my weaknesses man

What's your favorite invention?
- on bags and shoes :D

Is your room messy?
- err, not really, but i can say so when my sister's around hahahahaa

What do you like better: oranges or apples?
- both will do,

Do you give in easily?
- not really

Are you a good guesser?
- can say so ;D

Can you read other people's expressions?
- hahha yeah

Are you a bully?
- :DDDD ask ppl around meeeeh ;D

Do you have a job?
- im a student, i dont work haha

What time did you wake up this morning?
- 12 pm

What did you eat for breakfast this morning?
- nothing,

When was the last time you showered?
- yesterday :DD

What do you plan on doing tomorrow?
- tido and tido and study -,-

What's your favorite day of the week and why?
- none

Do you have any nicknames?
- fera,

Have you ever been scuba diving?
- nopee

What's your least favorite color?
- i dont really suit yellow -,-

Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?
- my boo, ariff :)))))))))))))))))))))

Would you ever go skydiving?
- YES I WOULD BEBEHHHH

What toothpaste do you use?
- darlieee

Do you enjoy challenges?
- depends,

What's the worst injury you have had?
- played rollerblade then suddenly i fell smpai lutut koyak :((

What's the last movie you saw?
- G.I. JOE.uuuuuuuuu

What do you want to know about the future?
- what will i become of, and whos my husband? heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

What does your last text message say?
- hahahahaha.bidon ngntuk jee.kau online lg kee? from ANAM

Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?
- lokie,hahahahaha

What's your favorite school subject?
- MATH,duhhhh

What's your least favorite school subject?
- sejarah -,-

Would you rather have money or love?
- when i have money, i'l seek for love, wihout money, how cn i survive man? hahaha

What is your dream vacation?
- stay at PARIS and open my boutiques

What is your favorite animal?
- lion cub!hahahahhaha.comel ouh :D

Do you miss anyone right now?
- WAN MUHAMMAD ARIFF

What's the last sporting event you watched?
- jangan pndang blakang congkak hahahhaha im lovin it

Do you need to do laundry?
- nope, already done it

Do you listen to the radio?
- nope, i listened to my laptop HAHAHA:D

Where were you when 9/11 happened?
- here,in front of my hse,lepak

What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
- cilaka penipu punya mesen haha

Have you ever caught a butterfly?
- no, not interested in catching one haha

What color are your bed sheets?
- cdark pink

What's your ringtone?
- bottle pop

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
- ppl around me

Do you have any obsessions right now?
- wedges right now

Do you like things that glow in the dark?
- yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh:D

What's your favorite fruity scent?
- sumting that i didnt know the name of it haha

Do you watch cartoons?
-tom and jerry :)

Have you ever sat on a roof?
- nope,takut jatuh or bumbung pecah :DD

Have you ever been to a different country?
- mhm, yes i have

Name three things in the world you dislike:
- lipas,kene bgun pagi pegi skolah and bau mulut org x gosok gigi

Name three people in the world you dislike:
- hahahhahaha you dont need to know okay haha

Has a rumor even been spread about you?
- dont give a damn

Do you like sushi?
- yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:DDDDDDDD

Do you believe in magic?
- tak, syirik weh,

Do you hold grudges?
- nope, meletup terus, then senyap haha

at LAST!

woooooohhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooo!
at last,this is the tops i was talking about.from DOROTHY PERKINS.
hihihihihihiihi.

*enjoy watchin it!

RAYA?

OMG!!
can't believe it that RAYA is around the corner.
its this SUNDAY man!
wuarghhh!!!!im so GRATEFUL and at the same time i has this unsatisfy feelings in my heart!

this RAYA we celebrate it in KELANTAN man!
oh noo!now,i have to be this MAK CIK FERA man,i have to wear tudung.
no matter where i go!
hahahahahha.
or u can called me USTAZAH FERA this time.

nvm,at least,my mom were there with us.
ABAH?dunno laaa.
hmm,i want to say something to all my pals!

SEMPENA RAYA KALI NI,
AKU, NIK NOOR FARAH NIK ZAMRI
INGIN MEMINTA AMPUN DAN MAAF
SEKIRANYA ADA TERKASAR BAHASA OR TERSILAP BICARA
OR MCM2 LAA YANG MENYAKITKN HATI.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN :D

p/s : ariff is in TEREGGANU!
awwww!
at least he's near with me.

*continue on the kittens!

meet RATCHET!
bboy's kittens.hahahahhaha (;

back to the topics.
meet my cute little kittens!
there are 4 of them,they are JAZZ,BADUT,RATCHET nn BLANKET!
unique name for them.

unlike our previous cats,their named are different than this one.
hohohohohho.
nvm,back to story.their mother PIXELS,are white SIAMESE cat.
so,unlucky for them,she accidently has been RAPPED by a black PERSIAN cat.
that is why,her kids are all black and white in colour.
hahahahahahhahahhaha.

what is this little cute thing?

what is this thing doing over here?
look at their cute little ears!

there's more to come ;)

futsal babehhh ;)

see it for yourself!
the picture tells it all.no need to write what are we doing.
ngehngehngeh!
for damn sure we are out of ENERGY ;)

the L E P A K N E S S !

this is what we have been doing for last school holidays.

no REVISION for my SPM TRIALS.

hahahahahhaha.

we've been doing the same things for 1 whole week.

OMG!can't believe it that Im getting CLOSER back with BUSONG,APEK,LOKIE AND ZURY.

and,something happen during the LEPAKING!

won't FORGET it EVER!hahahahahahha

I will miss it since now Im busying with BOOKS!

being a BOOKWORM is not my choice );

for 2009 SPM,I have no choice.

so,SPM 2009,

c'mon BRING IT!Im not scared of you!

someone who thinks he/she deserves to read this!

hey YOU!

you think you are GOOD enough to played with my feelings?

my HEART is for them who really APPRECIATE it.

not for you to RUINED or CRUSHED it.

damn you.

I thought you are the ONE for me,

but I'm totally and 100% WRONG about it.

I just stick to the PHRASES "what goes aroud comes around"

so that the SAME thing will happen to YOU!

gdbye and gdnite friend/foe!

GRRRRR!!!!

my HEART is full with EMPTYNESS.

need someone to fill it with HAPPINESS

need someone to love me because of who I am (;

not because for who I are

xoxo

♥ ferazaemri

2009 QIYAMULLAIL :D

the occasion has been held at Masjid Darul Ehsan (Taman TAR)

guess what?i've met our childhood friend which is ARIF ARHAM.

nisa?remember him? (;

at first,i didn't recognised him at all.

then najwa who told me about him.suddenly i get flashback memory.

hohohohohohoho.the qiyamullail was FUN!

although i can't sleep,i enjoyed myself there bcoz im the IMPORTANT pple there.

juniors and seniors are gathering together there.

SENIORS??im the seniors laaa.

silly me.hahahahhaha

there were BBQ and last but not least,

there were NIK DANIAL ISKANDAR which i have a CRUSH towards him.

hahahahahhahahhaa.

it's just a joke oke.it's a stupid joke between me nn najwa.

aite babe?btw,i miss ABBY madly );